Saturday, June 27, 2009

Confessions of a Klutzy Blooper King


There is no doubt in my mind that I'm a Klutz... yes its true!!

But what's worse is the fact that I am also side-tracked (for lack of a better word) and I don't tend to pay much attention to what I'm saying, doing, hearing (you name it!). Inattentive. Lost. Possibly retarded (though I highly doubt that; yet people tend to be suspicious).

Let me recall the funniest incident that has happened to me lately. Around a week ago, one of my best friends hosted his wedding reception. Due to a complicated and irritating summer term (that's another story!) I had missed out on going to his wedding in Bhopal. Nevertheless I had full intention of making the best of the reception. Needless to say, I had forgotten when it was.

Time: 8.30 pm Status: Returning from X-Men Origins: Wolverine

That's when I got the call. His voice sounded a bit frantic as he asked me, "Where are you?” I told him where I was and he exasperatedly said, "I knew you'd forget!”

But the story was yet to continue; little did I know that just forgetting about the date wasn't the end of my mishaps!

I hurried back home and thought better than to dress up in formals with the sweltering heat. Grabbing a fresh pair of Jeans and a formal shirt I hurried to Hotel Parkview. I scanned the big compound and decided not to call him. I'd find the place myself. After 10 minutes of a pointless and futile search I thought it best to go to the reception. When I asked for "Mr. Khans Reception" I was left staring at a pair of confused eyes coupled with a raised eyebrow. "I'm sorry sir; you seemed to have come to the wrong place. There is no reception taking place today."

That's when I started to panic and began frenzy. Stuttering I managed to ask him to make sure that was true. When he verified the fact that I had forgotten the venue of my best friend's wedding reception, I felt a little numb (maybe the correct word would be brain freeze!). Was Shoaib pulling a joke? No, this seemed hardly the occasion for a joke like that. He was just too responsible to be hauling me from home like this. I called him up and was informed in another exasperated tone that I had managed to get the location wrong.
Anand Gupta does it again.

Not that he didn't expect anything of this sort to happen. I never cease to surprise him.

Never.

Another 15 minutes went as I made my way to the reception. I entered the clean compound of the University Staff Club to find brilliant lights and tents erected. Thankfully (for me) there was no loud music belching out! God bless Shoaib!

I entered. I found him chatting with another friend of mine Yatin. Both of them instantly looked up. Though Shoaib tried to act normal, Yatin managed to change a snort into a cough; it was evident something was wrong. I looked around myself to find hoards of people sporting suits and blazers; formal pants at the very least. I was sticking out like a particularly ugly sore thumb!

After a small introduction (and several smirks from Yatin; hmph!) I decided to run back home and change. It was bad enough I was getting patronizing (and scrutinizing) looks from all around.

Another half hour spent.

I returned in formals at 10.15pm, exactly 2 hours and 15 minutes late than the official time.

Wow.

Personal best.

Then it all went smooth, actually. I didn't even dribble food on my front! And after a lot of chit-chatting (mostly me, Yash and Yatin) we proceeded to getting photographed and then we all bade farewell.

I didn't turn out as bad as it had been prophesized. :)


(L-R: Me, Shoaib and Yatin)

Saturday, June 20, 2009

How I fall...

Eleven days have passed
Seems like so much more
As i continue to brood about the past
I look hopefully at the door

Perhaps to see her run inside
With her extremely naughty grin
And her black hair tied
Above the sparkling skin

I take out the things I'm left with
My gaze falls on a photograph
And the countless gifts
A letter, a card, a paragraph

The songs she asked me to listen
I always had seemed to forget
Now that she has gone
There is so much I regret

Love wasn't unfair at all
It unexpectedly broke apart
And this is how I fall
Shattered, broken heart...

Monday, April 6, 2009

The Testament

Here I am today fading into the fathomless darkness that surrounds me like a veil upon a mystic woman in a far off land... 
Nothing is in motion; there is peace all around.. Yet in this silence a storm rages inside me, with whom I have yet to come to terms with.. It's a fire that's burning me inside out and is spreading inch by inch within me, killing me bit by bit... 

Shadows lurk around me, yet when I turn to look, they vanish into the abyss with a slight twitch in their step to show their agitation... 
A hundred voices whisper their discontentment, but I do not hear them call...

Fear grips me, clouds my judgement; I stumble; I fall...
My panic knows no bounds... I seem to go on a path unfamiliar and untouched... 

I am waiting...
The whisper of her voice, a sliver of light; the tip-toe of her feet... Any familiar senses coming back to me to heal my wounded visage of disdain... I am impatient.. But I have no choice at all... But to accept this as my destiny...

I continue to wait, till I rust and fade away...

Monday, October 6, 2008

The Phone Call

As i went on talking, I came to realize nothing seemed to make sense... It was not only irrational but it also made me aware how awry these thoughts seemed to go. Perhaps it was time for me to make my intentions clear, and make sure my motives, good as they were, were realized. Maybe I was not clear in portraying my feelings and emotions and in that she was lost in a mirage of confused and random images of dismay. 

I do not blame anyone for this predicament. It was a battle I had long been fighting inside myself but never had the courage and wit to even try to retaliate by making a move. I could have made a hushed and silent argument which was swift and untraceable to the eye, much like the Trojan horse, but I feared the consequences...

It is futile to even try and reconcile. It's just a matter of how long it takes me to learn the most difficult of all virtues; acceptance.

That will be the start of something new, and I know it'll make things right for both of us.

It began with that phone call.